Kayla

So today i got up.. went to school.. went to class.. another class.. spare.. ate lunch.. got into a minor car accident.. went to class.. then another class.. and finally class again... hoped on the bus.. got off the bus.. walked home.. talked with my mom.. ate.. went on the cpu.. talked to my one friend who isn't doing so well with Jesus.. and she's dating a non christian guy and she's dated all these guys before.. some christian.. some not.. God's told her to break up with them all.. and i was talking to her and it got laid on my heart to tell her that God wanted her to break up with her boyfriend.. and so i was like "can i ask you a question?" she says sure.. so i ask "So.. you've dated all these guys.. some even christian.. yet God's told you to break up with them all.. and now you're dating Ashton.. what do you think God thinks on you and him dating?" then she said i was the most encouraging friends she had.. but she said it as if she said "you're a jerk and i hate you" and we still haven't talked.. and then i was like "o crap what if i wasn't supposed to say that" and so i talked to my one friend who has the attitude of "God can go eff himself" but she was the one who led me to Christ.. and i had no one else to talk to so i tell her what happens and..well.. she's telling me all this stuff like "blah sometimes you're not always right.. and if God wants it to happen it will.. and blah blah blah" and so i'm trying to be like "no see this time i think i am right... because honestly i really think it was just God speaking through me.. honestly i think they make a reasonably good couple.. but in God's world.. they don't because He has someone better for her" and then she starts this rant on how these three friends sit around every year after i get home and they talk about the "lecture" they've recieved and how they are all "blah change your life for Jesus or go to hell"... and how it's always the same.. how i'm all "blah Jesus" and then around January apperantly i'm doing drugs smoking drinking and sleeping with random men. and how it will happen the same.. and then i told her that as if she cared. and then she goes on to say how she was worried and tried helping and so i was like "yea so you help by doing the same things? 'Oh, Eliza's doing drugs and drinking i'm worried.. lets help her and do drugs' yea nice concern" and then i explain to her how i never thought she actually cared because they always threw me off to Delia and never called or asked me to hang out.. and so i became closer with Delia and then she goes on to say how i shouldn't always make myself the victim and how it's really my fault. and i admitted to her that yes it was partly my fault and her fault and the two others fault and Delia's fault. and then she was like "blah shut up" and so i was like "WELL WHATEVER I'm sorry for not being perfect in my faith.. i'm sorry you didn't know anything about my life i'm sorry i walked through some hard times that affected me terribly and i'm sorry i didn't stand strong is that what you want?" and she said something else but i can't remember and then i had to go because i had to go out for coffee with my one friend Sarah because she just got back from her pilgramage in europe.. those crazy catholics.. she got smashed in germany with nuns and priests.. and her spiritual advisor... hahaha