ten bucks against..
So I've pretty much got the best friends ever.. o wait i don't.. so i get back from S.I. and go to school.. honestly. it's hard. i've got two friends who have bets with me about smoking (before Nov. 1st i lose out ten bucks to each.. but if i make it to Nov. 1st i get twenty bucks) and then other people are just placing bets on me.. and now i've got a friend laying on the expectations and last night.. was one of the most greatest nights ever.. i was so.. just. gah. i can't even say what state i was in it was this weird mix of sad hurt anger love brokenness and so much more and i was at a loss of things to do.. so i went to my basement put on some worship music and layed on my face for awhile.. and just started talking with my Daddy.. turned into a bit of a worship hay-day for me. honestly even though at that moment i was like "ugh life is gay this sucks blah blah blah" God was still just soo good. so.. i just started to praise Him.. pretty much awesome.. drew a little.. danced a little.. ugh. k so like for the past i dunno months pretty much i've been reading my Bible every day and that day i forgot it in my friends locker.. and last night honestly.. i just had the biggest urge to read my Bible.. i felt so.. not right without reading it that night.. and so tonight i'm definantly going to make myself a cup of tea and read my bible till like midnight :) i'm so excited haha.. draw a bit.. spend some time with my Daddy.. it shall be just great... i'm excited.. tehee.. if anybody has heard me laugh when i'm like being tickled hardcore.. yup. the little girl giggle.. thats me now. i'm just so excited.. i have to go.. later haha
peace out
peace out
posted by ninja_e at 9/02/2005 09:46:00 PM
2 Comments:
you have such a heart for God.it makes me smile. i love you eliza jane zachary
If you are going to break anything's kneecaps you should definitely unload on those stupid expectations. I believe in you Eliza--and my belief in you has nothing to do with whether or not you'll smoke or drink or become president of your youth group. I just believe that Jesus loves you, I've personally seen you love Him, and my confidence in you comes from knowing who your Daddy is. It sucks that your friends don't help encourage you to live for God...that really totally sucks. But the only way they'll see light is if you shine it out. It's hard to believe some days, but the best thing you can do for your family and friends is to LOVE Jesus and live for Him. Read 1 Cor. 10:13 right now. I love you Ninja-E...you're fantastic and I am so proud of you.
~Ash-Tree
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