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So... I'm in grade twelve.. and I'm sure that almost everyone and their dog has asked me "well geeze Eliza what are you doing with your life then?"


and well
the honest answer is "well geeze, I have no idea!"


and that is kinda starting to freak me out a little.. mostly because majority of the people I know are either moving onto the next step of their life.. or they already have their next step planned out.. and I'm kinda sitting around twiddling my thumbs..



It honestly just dawned on me a few days ago.. that I'm actually graduating.. and I have to kinda get together what I'm doing with my life..

so.. I just don't know what to do..

There's so many choices.. and I'm captain indecisive.. and my mom drills me almost 4 times a week about what I'm doing.. bah..



..but secretly.. I think I know where I'll end up.. and secretly I think I know what God has in plan for me for the next 5ish years of my life.... but I'm so nervous about this.. and to go right out and say it scares me.. and I don't know why..


and I'm secretly unsure about this whole thing.. and secretly I'm worried sick that this may not be what He has for me... and secretly.. I just don't know anything..


I'm pretty sure the only thing I know is that I just want what He wants for my life... I dunno how that looks exactly... but.. I'm okay with that...