......hurt

There wasn't anything special about today.. it was the basic tuesday routine.. except instead of bible study we made pizza for our fundraiser.. so.. at the end of the night.. i'm loading up pizza in my car to take home so i can deliver them to people tomorrow.. and I made the mistake of going out the mix doors.. there's these guys standing across the street.. and they start loudly commenting "what the fuck is that?" and then these girls walk out the mix doors and start loudly commenting on my looks and making bets on which gender i belonged too.. and of course they join together and i walk to the other door of my car to get in and they start whislting at me sarcastically and yelling obscenities about how "hot" i am..
i didn't look at them.. didn't say anything to them.. just got in my car... turned it on.. drove away and focused on not crying.

and so basically..
i feel like shit.
you'd expect that after hearing things like that every other freaking day since i was little.. that i'd be able to just block it out by now...
but i guess that tonight was just a bit too much for me to handle..


so now... i think i'm going to just go lie in bed forever..




-eliza.