torn.apart

My uncle has around a year to live.
He has cancer again.
and... I went for supper at my grandma's... and visited with him and the rest of the family..
then I left.. went to Shannons.. and lit up a smoke.

I'm so disgusted with myself.. I honestly almost started to cry.




What am I doing with my life?


I was thinking earlier.. about when Shannon and Co. will be gone... and I'm so scared.

Friends are getting all caught up in the world..
and my heart is breaking...
and I don't know what to do..
and I'm so scared.

Zeph 3:17
The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing