Joy and sorrow

Today wasn't the best of days for me.. I think it had something to do with me waking up at 6 am (after going to sleep at 1 am) to drive my dad to work.. it's never pleasent... or going to school.. or going into work.. but I'm realizing I shouldn't base my attitude/emotions on the scenarios unfolding around me.. because He is the hope I profess.. He is my joy. On Him is where I set my gaze.. even with this world around me full of death.. I can still find Joy and Hope.. love and acceptance.. in my Father.. and this makes it all worth it.. because compared to eternity.. this is nothing but a speck of sand on the seashore.. isn't that wonderful? I certainly think so..

Part II

on saturday this guy I know.. hung himself.. and he wasn't a christian.. I've only met him about three times.. and I never once told him about Jesus.. how foolish is that? Another one of God's Kid's is in hell.. and it's ridiculious.. and I'm upset about it now.. but tomorrow I'm going to see all the same people.. and I'm going to act the same way.. and I'm not going to say one word to them about their Father.. this apathy is killing me.. and killing others..I think I feel a little sick..