Up- to the - date

So God... is ridiculiously amazingly good. Ever since Shannons been home.. all she can talk about is how freaking amazing Jesus is and how much He's changed her life.. just watching her.. blows me out of the water.. seeing how she can just go up to these people and just telling them out right what God did for her and how amazing He is.. is amazing.. all these people I could never imagine telling about Jesus.. she just goes and does it. Like my brother, or my brothers girlfriend for that matter.. it's insane. I remember when I first became a christian.. I was like 12.. and I'd tell people and they'd respond to me like I was a little kid and that it was just nothing and they'd quickly change the subject.. and then I became insecure about it... especially with the people I was close with.. because I was so scared that if I did share Jesus with them.. they'd just treat me like a five year old and reject me... man life has been so crazy... Soo today.. I get up go to Shannons to get her for school.. she's not ready.. so we skip first.. and then she's still not ready.. and I'm like "frick Shannon you have to go to school" and she's like "I don't want to" and I'm like "fine. we just won't go this morning, but we're going in the afternoon" and then we go for lunch with Scott.. and we go back to the house to get her binder.. and we go inside and she's like "I don't think I'm going to go this afternoon, I really don't want to" and so I got real angry and was thinking to myself that going to JP and stuff was such a waste.. because without Shannon being in JP with me I don't want to go.. because other than her and like two other people I don't really know anyone. And so I was like "frick, whatever I have to go to school." and I acted like a real big jerk.. and I left.. got to school late.. thought to myself "screw this" tried to start my car.. but it wouldn't.. finally got it started.. and I just had to get out.. and so I went to the old airport and got out of my car and walked around.. just started crying and yelling at God... for putting my in these relationships with people... for making me broken for people.. that I wish I could just quit.. and get so lost in sin and live in a freaking hole for the rest of my life.. because that would be so much easier.. and then God told me to stand up... so I did.. and I looked around.. and there was peace.. and God just said "Eliza.. I made all of this.. I made you.. I wrote out your life.. I have you in my arms.. Eliza you are taken care of.." it was awesome.. and then I go for coffee with Shannon and Lindsey (bros' gf.) and so Shannons telling us that earlier today she was praying got frustrated with everything and left a message on Lindseys msn saying that she messed up real bad and moving out was a mistake and how sorry she was.. but Shannon and I tottaly think this was God.. because instead of msging Lindsey she msg'ed Tyler.. who was the one who was angry at her.. and he said that she could move back in, meaning Shannons out of the relationship with Mitch.. and then I'm just talking to Lindsey on msn.. and she just told me that on monday night when Shannon and I went over and Shannon was telling them all about what God has done for her.. apperantly Tyler told Lindsey that after that.. he started thinking about becomming a christian.. and now I'm talking to Lindsey about it.. and apperantly she's real curious about it too.. and so they might be coming to church with me on sunday.. This is ridiculiously exciting. wow.. today.. has been crazy..

Praise God...

love,
Eliza