Effin Sick...

So i've been stuck in my house for the past two days.. you know what that equals? it equals GAY. that's what. so.. i dunno.. it felt nice not having anything to do.. but also.. because i had nothing to do i've pretty much been so apathetic.. which isn't good.. because we all know apathy just isn't cool. like.. you'd think i would have spent the past two days chillin with Jesus... because heck what else do you do when there is nothing to do? well not me... i definantly spent my time watching tv.. ol' school.. dukes of hazard and original degrassi junior high... sick? heck yes. so whats the lesson here? i don't know.. it's mostly just me being appalled at myself for wasting my own life.. geeze.. k, switching gears. so if i could i'd definantly just scream right now. just freak right out. and break things. possibly put a whole in the wall with some appendage of myself. i don't even know why. i'm pretty sure i'm just being over critical of myself.. yet again. suprise! o wait.. no thats nothing new. frick. honestly i don't know how life could be more wrong right at this moment. o wait i could be out doing drugs and smoking and drunk and sleeping with some random man.. but o wait according to my "friends" i'll get to that. just wait a moment please. friends? what friends? I really mean the jerks i associate myself with. frick. i want' out of this crack whore town. 'coz nobody cares about me here and the ones who are supposed to... have cracked expectations and the other ones.. forget about me.. i'm suprised i don't have scars by now. i can't wait to move to calgary... praise Jesus for calgary..

-eliza-