Death...

So i don't know why.. but in the past three months.. i've had four friends die.. now it's possibly up to six.. the first three died on Wendsday June 15.. Meagan,Andrea,Steph... then on July 27th my other friend Garrett died.. all of them in car accidents.. and so tonight.. i was talking to three of my friends.. Amanda Curtis and Alanna.. and they are all drinking and then going to go and sneak into the third period of the hockey game.... so i get this phone call a while later.. like 10:30.. and it's Amanda and she's at home and she's freaking out and she's telling me that Alana drank a mickey of hot 100 (50% alchohol) and Curtis drank either a mickey or a 2 6 of smirnoff and they weren't allowed into the hockey rink because they were so drunk.. so they are walking back through this school yard to get to Amanda's house when Curtis sits on this bench and then Alanna starts puking and she passes out and Amanda see's cops coming so she's telling Alanna to get up and she finds out Alanna's not breathing and she goes to get Curtis and she takes a step towards him and he falls off the bench and he's not breathing either and so the cops show up and then the ambulance does and Amanda couldn't handle it and the cops sent her home.. and so i guess the ambulance took Curtis and Alanna to the hospital and i don't know anything and now it's like midnight and Amanda was supposed to call me back because her dad just got home... and FUCK... why are all these people dying?! damnit.. i don't know what to do..

Jesus.. please help me.. Daddy take me up in your arms.. o God i need you so much..

i just wanna scream..

-elizajane..-