Jesus Loves Me This I Know..

sooo yea.. i feel so lost right now.. and so anxious.. i don't know why.. frick. i hate feeling desperate. There's so many feelings running through me right now.. and there isn't really a reason for them to be there. honestly.. sure it sucks being home.. it's heart breaking seeing my friends walk in the paths that trapped me for so long.. and it's hard being with people who are only waiting for me to fall, to mess up. And tonight i'm sitting around feeling anxious and nervous and desperate.. i'm feeling angry and hurt.. lost..confused.. alone. I feel like I should be bleeding... but I'm done with that. Because I am going to choose truth. (Isaiah 30: 19-21) "O people of Zion, who live in Jerusalem, you will weep no more. How gracious he will be when you cry for help! As soon as he hears, he will answer you. Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them. Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, 'This is the way; walk in it.' " The truth is that the Lord has me, He will not let me go, and I am His daughter, and I'm not ready to forsake that. Even if I can only be forever at the threshing floor of my Fathers house. I'd rather be there than lost and bound within the camp of my enemies. Sure.. it still feels like I'm a bazillion miles from Jesus.. but the truth is.. He's right here. And I'm desperate for more of Him.